I experienced sleep paralysis.

16 June 2018 10:14am

I think I just experienced sleep paralysis for the first time and it was terrifying.

I had my usual recurring nightmare about my step father sexually assaulting me that I’ve been having since I was 12 or so, but it was longer and continued further than usual. I screamed and woke up but couldn’t respond for awhile. I laid there with tears streaming down my face and really wanted to grab my phone but couldn’t for about 3-5 minutes.

I started to get some trauma therapy for this.

They said to write the nightmare down, then write it again but recreate it into a dream, to burn the nightmare one & read the dream one often…they said like when I see him come into my room, then to say something for him to go away or think that a swarm of eagles or lions come in and attack him or something. But it’s just so hard.. it’s like I can’t stop him. It’s so real and scary.


Life Update – Where have I been? | Blindness… 01 May 2018

Hello my corner of the inter-webs!

I haven’t been posting too regularly, just here and there. But here is why…

I have been losing my eye sight quite rapidly lately which is a bit of a bummer but I met up with an Orientation & Mobility worker on the phone for one session and I have now started to take Braille lessons and soon will receive my cane and take lessons for that, too!

I’m taking to the whole Braille thing pretty well, it was stressful at the start but wow- I’m essentially learning another language, just like learning anything, a new instrument, language, whatever it is, it’s tough.

It’s also super freaking scary to wake up the next day and have your eye sight drop down dramatically just overnight.

But! There is some perks about being blind, lol.

I have been diagnosed with Retinitis Pigmentosa, Nystagmus and am experiencing Retinal Detachment 😦 but I know I’ll be okay and that I will adapt! 💪🏼❤️

I’ve been watching Molly Burke and a few other fellow blind humans on YouTube to help me learn about blindness, etc. as well has how to adapt.

I went to see The Script LIVE in Sydney with my amazing boyfriend last weekend and I actually fractured my left foot 😫 by thinking stairs were a ramp and falling in the dark! 😧 #blindgirlproblems and I am now on crutches.. but I have been walking on it since crutches are no fun!

We also saw Eels vs. Tigers this weekend just been and hopefully will be seeing Eels vs. Sharks this weekend coming 💛💙💪🏼 (oh, and yeah, Jesse has converted me to Eels 🤦🏼‍♀️ from Tigers 🐯 oops, I’m a traitor 🙃🙃🙃 ).

How is everyone?! ❤️❤️❤️

Gracie xoxo

Easter Long Weekend | 3 April 2018

Hi 👋 welcome back to my blog, or welcome if you’re new 💓

I am here with the long-awaited Easter Long Weekend blog post~ from Thursday morning — Monday morning over Easter, I stayed on my Uncles boat with him, my grandma and my uncles partner at Soldiers Point/Salamander Bay.

Here are some photos of the trip; it was truely amazing and a good time out after the Domestic Violence I went through just 2 weeks ago.

I really hope you enjoyed this post!

Question; have you ever been on a boat or a cruise or anything of the sort? Comment below 🤷🏼‍♀️

Thanks for reading, leave me some feedback below 🙏🏼

Grace xo

It affects my relationships…and my everyday, day to day life | 3 April 2018

Hello everyone and welcome to my corner of the blogging world 🌎

Today/tonight/this morning/this evening or whatever it is where you are, we have a more serious, unplanned blog post. It’s something I’ve had on my mind tonight and since being single again.

Here goes~

TW/CW; sex, r*pe, sexual assault, etc.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you feel bad when you can’t please them? Like, when there’s this guy, or whenever anyone tries to get into a relationship with me, I love them so much and they mean a lot to me, but I just can’t do things because of how hurt I was when I was r*ped. I don’t feel pleasure when I touch myself. I don’t feel pleasure in penetration and I wish I did. I do. I wish I could get pleasure from touching myself but it’s not like that. My step father, someone I thought I should be able to trust.. an adult, took something so special from me when I was just 12 years old. He physically, mentally, sexually, emotionally (and whatever else) abused me until I felt guilt and nothing else. It’s not your fault, it’s not anyone who likes me’s fault, it’s not my partners fault, nor is it my fault- it’s my step fathers. He chose to take advantage of me as young as a child. I wish that it never happened so that I could enjoy sexual experiences.

Do any of you ever feel this way? Whether you were r*ped or not?

It’s such a hard thing to get over because that part of your body that someone else touched without your consent, is going to be apart of you for L I F E. There’s no getting rid of it …

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed (?) this post as much as you could🤷🏼‍♀️😦

I just needed to share/rant/and I hope I’m not alone in this…

Grace xo

P.S. I’ll try to come out with my blog post for Easter Long Weekend tomorrow! 🤭🤷🏼‍♀️

Life Update + Social Media Marketing Course| 29.03.2018

Welcome back to my corner of the internet…

I’m here to update you on my life~

So the past month and a bit has been nothing short of hard; on March 7th my Grandfather passed away, about a week later, I went back home to VIC with my fiancé and a week after being there, he turned violent, I called the police and they came and helped me out- we now have a restraining order- and then for a week after that I was in hospital and driving back to NSW to be with family.

During this time I have also had to re-home my cat; Aspen.

So, I’ve lost my Grandfather, my Fiancé and my cat; Aspen all in the span of a few weeks- it’s hard. I’m broken. But I’m getting there.

It’s like a damn divorce, in all honesty; with the amount of paperwork I have to do.

But I’m getting there~

Also, on a good note; I started a Diploma of Social Media Marketing!! Yay- and I’m enjoying it!

Anyway, I’m going on a boat today and over easter, so I’m off for awhile but chat soon!

~ Grace. Xoxo.

Business Goals | 23 January 2018 | 11:05pm

My new friends in my new business introduced me to a site with FREE training for social media success.

So, today, I signed up!

This is one of the blog posts on that website!

‘Success is not all about money and it shouldn’t be your only motivation, but for many of us, the money part does matter a little bit (or a lot). 🙂 And because of this, I want you to take a few minutes and really come up with some tangible “money” goals.

Please make sure you answer ALL 3 of these goals within this post and feel free to elaborate on these answers within your comment below.

QUESTION #1: How much money would you be happy earning?

QUESTION #2: How much would you be ecstatic earning?

QUESTION #3: And how much TIME are you willing to invest to achieve these goals?

Notice the last question? That is there for a reason. Most of us are in such a rush to become rich that we end up like the hare, instead of the turtle. Please refrain from saying you want to be successful within a week or a month, because if you do this, I can honestly say you are setting yourself up for failure from the get go.

Be realistic, but at the same time shoot for the stars. If you come up short from BIG goals, you have still reached greatness.

I look forward to hearing everyones feedback and please do take time to immerse yourself within the goals and conversations within this thread.

To your success!’

How powerful is that?!

What would your goals be?!

People said like $30K as a ‘happy income goal’ 😳🤭

And like, 20hr as a goal to work on their business PER DAY 🙈🙈🙈

This really has opened my eyes.

Maybe I should be investing into my business like that?….

I sat down and worked out my goals;

‘Happy’ income: $1-2K a day.

‘Ecstatic’ income: $10-20K a day.

Time limit per day: 10-12hr.

These goals are not only BIG.. but GIANT.. GIGANTIC for me!

But I was looking at everyone else and it really opened my eyes!!


What’s your opinion of people setting all these BIG, unachieveable goals (so I think, they may be very successful already!)?